Wednesday, November 01, 2006

Void identity

It was a sunny afternoon at the Delhi cant area; i was waiting for my school bus.
One of the fellow student asked me "where you there at kutub minar yesterday evening?".
"It wasn't me", i replied back. "He looked so similar to you. dude! you have a humshakl".

As a kid of 3rd grade, i was happy to believe that, the concept of identical faced people seemed a lot amazing to me. All the Bollywood movies having the fascinating humshakl concept ran through my head.

Some 15 years later, a cloudy evening in powai, Mumbai; a lot of people briskly walking towards a company guest house. Today was the reporting day for the new job, so everybody was carrying their luggage along with them. When i reached at the reception, i saw a lot of people waiting for the manager to allocate rooms to all of us. While waiting near the reception, I noticed a timing-table of lunch and dinner on notice board, while reading it, a discussion started between me and a stranger, this discussion didn't include any formal introduction, we talked about a lot of things like the place they came from, our previous companies and much more. After a bit of talking a third stranger got involved in our discussion.
After a while, the manager showed up; we all got our rooms. Me and the 1st stranger got to share the same room, then i said "hi!, this is Manish", he replied back saying "I am Manish too!"; what a coincident. It was time to rush to our rooms, we all three were going along, 3rd stranger said "Btw, i am Manish". What else could have surprise us more; with a smile, we said we both are Manish too. Then in the fit of surprise i shouted and asked "Is there anybody else named Manish here?". No there weren't any more Manishs around.

In almost every grade, i used to have atleast one more student named Manish. It's a very common Indian name.

These are mere coincidences, but sometimes, when i ponder upon these situations,a few questions pop-up in my head.

Is my name my identity?Yes.
Is my face my identity?Yes.
Is my gait my identity?Sort Of yes.

Lets put it in another way, all these are part of my identity.
But I am more than these;
can i perfectly explain the other factors? No.
That proves my identity is fuzzy.

"You are not the man, i had married 25 years ago".
"You are not the guy, i have know for last 10 years."
"You have changed, i didn't expect this from you."

I hear many such comments from a lot of people.
It's just the identity, its fuzzy and it changes too.
The Fact is nobody knows anyone completely, not even self.

By seeing all this, i can only say "Identity is fuzzy and it changes"
But, by definition Identity is distinct and a person is recognized by it.

so, isn't the concept of identity void.

Well!, i will leave the discussion open here for the reader's to build upon it.